Life at Oak Grove

On July 5th, we drove to White Lake and rented a pontoon boat for our first family fishing trip.  Here’s some images from our morning on the water.

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A fellow blogger participating to the TOS Homeschool Crew is having this interesting Meme going on titled Walking With Jesus.    And this year as part of my blogging experience, I want to write more by participating in some of these meme going on around the blogosphere.
The idea behind Walking With Jesus is quite simple.  You have to blog about a Scripture verse that has been with you throughout this week, or yesterday or today.  Quite simple and easy to do.
So for this week, while doing devotions a verse struck me.

“Instead, I have calmed and quieted myself, like a weaned child who no longer cries for its mother’s milk.  Yes, like a weaned child is my soul within me.”  Psalm 131:2

Some of you might wonder where I am going with this but what struck me was the notes attached to this particular verse.  The notes are taken from the Transformation Bible.
Here’s what I’ve read…

The simile of the weaned child is a beautiful picture of the meaning of humility and maturity.   Hebrew children were weaned at age three or four, and this experience marked the end of their infancy.  But most children do not want to be deprived of mother’s loving arms and satisfying breasts, and they feel rejected and unwanted.  But after the crisis of birth, each child must eventually be weaned and learn the first lesson in the school of life: Growing up involves painful losses that can lead to wonderful gains.

Then is went on for part b of the verse with

God’s goal for us is emotional and spiritual maturity (1 Cor 13:11; 14:20’ Eph 4:13-15), and God sometimes has to wean us away from good things in order to give us better things.   Abraham had to leave his family and city, send Ishmael away, separate from Lot, and put Isaac on the altar.  To accept God’s will in the losses, and gains of life is to experience that inner calm that is so necessary if we are to be mature people.

Then I asked God the following questions…

• is HEAT a painful lesson for me?
• Why don’t I want to let go?
• Do I need to let go and grieve?
• Then we will have wonderful gains…?

For those of you who are wondering what HEAT is (or was), well it was our church plant.   We tried to plant a different kind of church in the downtown area but with the lack of volunteers and regular attendants, the church didn’t took off.   At one point, we had to shut the doors (back in November 2009) due to the leadership team being too small.    Since then, I’ve  been struggling, trying to convince my husband to restart but to no success.

So after asking these questions – I sensed a YES in my soul.   I need to let go.  I need to grieve HEAT and let go.    Let our baby go.   Peace swept inside me.   I share with my husband and he feels at peace as well.  
Since this, another leader expressed the wish to take over with his wife.   Maybe it was meant to be.   They are more gifted to reach out to the rave community than us in many ways.    However, we have told them to have at least 20 regular people before re-starting the church services and that we would be willing to be mentors for them – things we didn’t have when we planted.    HEAT is planning an event in July with a DJ coming all the way from Pennsylvania.    And another event are in the drawing for September.   We will participate as much as we can – encourage the team to pursue and continue to reach out.  

Hubby says a rock has been lifted up from his shoulders.   Me I am still grieving.   But I am encourage that God will bless us in the process.  The seed has been planted.  HEAT is recognized for their cool decors and clean raves.   Let me tears grow the seed now.   

I’m heartbroken.   I pray that God will also bring us to a church family who will love us and uplift us.   A church where we can get involved in ways we cannot imagine right now.    Amen.

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I have been challenged to participate to a Christian Group Writing Project.    How it works?  Simple.    A list of topics are offered on Faithful Blogger and you can choose  to write on a topic on your blog.   Then you need to go back and post the link of your post in the comments section so that everyone can read it.  Each blogger has a couple of days to choose the topic and then a week to write the post.  

The first assignment is Psalm 23.   We could choose ANY verse from the Psalm and write about it.   I chose verse 2.

“He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters”

Green Pastures

It is important to remember that life is not always greener on the other side of the fence.   Sometimes, everything seems to be going well and then suddenly road blocks seem to be emerging on your path.  *sigh*

We experienced this last year.   We had a though year.   Hard on the financial, spiritual and personal side of life.   The business was struggling.  Our church plant which we were pastoring had to shut it’s doors.  I personally experienced rejection with a close family member.   But through all this, God was faithful always reminding us (together or either one of us) that He is walking with us at any times.  

So we slowed down a bit and put our focus on Him.   After all, in the midst of all that was happening He was still there.   Waiting for us.    Providing.  Taking care of us.

Personally, it was also a time to reconnect with my Savior.   A time to sit down and reflect on all that He has done and what He was doing.   I didn’t have the whole picture in front of me.   Just bits and pieces but one word came over and over again – TRUST.

So God forced us to lie down, to stop wrestling with the issues that came from every sides and to connect with Him.   And we went through the hard times.  

Oh!  We had ups and downs.   Fortunately not at the same time for my husband and I.   But I did felt despair at times and I turned to Him who reminded me that He was there no matter what.

This past spring, I took a picture of my daughter walking in a field.   I love to think that I was walking with God in a meadow and sitting with Him to rest.    I wasn’t alone I know it but I can say that there was days I wondered and questioned.   But in the end, I realized that He was bigger than any problem that could come my way and that He was ever present in my life.

Quiet Waters

This past Monday – we went fishing on White Lake, ON.    Mind you it wasn’t quiet with 6 people on the boat but I had the opportunity to take pictures of the lake and enjoy God’s creation – from loons and eagles to fishes and dragonflies.

The water were not so calm that day.   There were waves.  But when I took this picture, the sun was rising and the water were smooth.  

Quiet waters.   Water of life.   God himself being able to calm the storms of life – the struggles and the hurricanes going on when we don’t know where to put our feet anymore.

Turning to the Bible has been a lifesaver for me.   Deciding to read through the Bible since January a blessing for my life.    My Transformation Study Bible has an interesting note for verse two.

“The word translated “leads” means “to lead gently”.

Apparently when you are a shepherd, you cannot drive sheep.    The sheep will follow the shepherd’s voice and follow him.  No need to yell, to hurry them, just play calmness in the voice.   This is exactly how God calms me while I go further and further in the Bible.   And He is so ever gentle with me.  I also took the habit recently to list my praises and thanks of the previous day in my journal.   A simple thing to do everyday but so rewarding at the end when you stop writing and already you have filled a whole page in your notebook. 

This got me thinking.   When you go through hard times, when God shows up and helps you to slow down, there is a reason.   It will help you grow close to Him, trust Him with every aspects of your life and realize that He is in control.

In case you are wondering  our though times went on until early Spring.   We are doing better.   The business is rolling but it would be nice to have a few more opportunities of contracts.   On the family side, I realized that I needed to become an intercessor for a close person in my heart.   So daily I pray to God that He will work a miracle and that He will show His presence to that person.   As for the church, well we are still waiting for an answer.   But we also know that ultimately God is working even when we don’t see it.